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Sky Daddy by Kate Folk

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Sky Daddy is a novel about a woman who wants to ‘marry’ a plane by dying in a plane crash, and what happens as she tries to achieve her apparent destiny. Linda works as a content moderator, ensuring comments adhere to a tech company’s terms and conditions, but once a month she takes a flight somewhere, to be with her true love: planes. When her only friend, co-worker Karina, invites her to vision board brunch, Linda has to find a way to hide the fact she’s attracted to planes and wants to die in a plane crash but still create a vision board that represents this, and as her life starts to be changed, she has to decide whether to follow her true dream or not.

This is the sort of book that you feel you need to read, because the concept is so weird, but then you actually read it and it is actually quite sweet and explores what it means to live the way you want and have meaningful connections with others. In particular, it has an underlying exploration of friendship between unlikely friends, and what it means to be there for someone. However, it does also live up to the weird, not shying away from Linda’s attraction to planes and the fact she believes that she will find her soulmate, a plane in which to die.

I had a great time reading Sky Daddy: it’s fun, it’s occasionally sly and funny, and it takes something pretty weird at face value. It sits alongside other recent novels that take a weird concept and actually do something both fun and tender with it, without taking themselves too seriously.

I Leave It Up To You by Jinwoo Chong

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I Leave It Up to You is a novel about a man who wakes up from a coma and returns to working in his estranged family’s sushi restaurant, finding family and love along the way. Jack Jr was in a coma for two years, during which a global pandemic happened, his parents got older, his little nephew became a teenager, and his family’s restaurant struggled. When he wakes up unexpectedly, he has to rebuild his life from scratch, with his job long gone, his soon-to-be-husband now married to someone else, and his only place to sleep being his childhood bedroom. With bonds to heal, a restaurant to fall back in love with, and a new love interest to get to know, Jack Jr has a lot to deal with.

I’ve wanted to read Jinwoo Chong’s previous book for a while now and not had the chance, so when I saw this one available on Netgalley, I needed to read it. This book is filled with a lot of heart and is your classic romcom setup of a character having to return to their hometown in order to rediscover what makes them happy, only with the twist that it is due to a two year long coma. Though the book is somewhat of a romcom (with some ridiculous elements like a video suddenly going viral on TikTok), it is really most about various characters feeling able to go after their passions, and how family can be complicated. I saw it described as ‘messy’, which is such a compliment in this case: both the protagonist and the supporting characters have a lot going on and it all comes together to show that you make the best of things.

If you’re looking for a queer version of the kind of romcom about returning home to rebuild your life, then I Leave It Up to You is a fun, heartwarming take on that story that has more of a focus on the protagonist and all of his relationships than just on romance.

North American Lake Monsters by Nathan Ballingrud

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North American Lake Monsters is a short story collection exploring different kinds of monsters, human and otherwise, and the messy realities of these. There’s a real range of stories in the collection and you’re always guessing what kind of horror, whether creature or psychological or something else, is going to appear in each one. There’s a lot about class in America and the impacts of desperation in relation to class, wealth, and worth, and I particularly like how this plays out in the titular story, which explores how we see different kinds of monsters and the importance of viewpoint. I also like how often any supernatural or otherworldly elements feel almost secondary in relevance to the working class lives in the book, with other people having a more important role in their stories and the horror within. If you like literary-tinged horror that shines a light on working class America, then this collection will be ideal.

One of the Boys by Victoria Zeller

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    One of the Boys is a novel about a trans girl who returns to playing football in her final year of high school, dealing with being caught between the sport she loves and if she has a place within it. Grace Woodhouse used to be a stereotypical jock: on the football team, popular girlfriend, eyes on a college football scholarship. That was, until she came out as trans, leaving the football team and her former life behind. Back at school for senior year, she’s navigating the loss of her sport and built-in friendship group, but when her old teammates convince her to come back, her non-football friends think she’s crazy and there are a lot of hurdles in the way. Grace has to consider what is important to her and what the future after high school might hold.

    This is the kind of young adult novel that should be read by anyone, because it is just a great coming of age story about being trans and having to decide what to keep from your past and who you want to be as you grow up. There’s a lot of nuance, not only in Grace’s story but in everyone’s in the novel, and a real sense that high school isn’t everything, and the person you are at the age of eighteen isn’t the end of anything. There’s so many great characters, some with small roles, and others with larger, but everyone gets something going on, even just in the background, which felt very real to what it is like as a teenager at school when there’s so many people you peripherally know or are aware of. I liked how it plays with classic ideas of cliques, like the football players and the theatre kids, but Grace was there trying to convince them that maybe things aren’t so clear cut

    It is also a small town America story, specifically Western New York, and how that might shape being trans and a lesbian and loving football, and how it shapes the people around her too. Strangely for a British person, this has a very specific subsection of things I do know about (I’ve been to Brockport, my sister played American football on a men’s team), and I really liked all the details, even appreciating those (mostly all the football stuff) that I’m not so familiar with. I also like how the book explains more about football than it does about being trans, because the book is really about exploring your passion and what happens when your relationship to it changes, rather than being just focused on Grace’s gender.

    This book was delightful to read, heartwarming yet with enough grit to make it more compelling than a fairytale version of this narrative. There’s so much packed into it, but ultimately, it’s a coming of age tale about doing what you love, finding your path after school, and how being trans changes the future you thought you had mapped out.

    I Want To Go Home But I’m Already There by Róisín Lanigan

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    I Want To Go Home But I’m Already There is a novel about the horrors of the housing crisis in London, as a young woman moves into a rental flat with her boyfriend and becomes convinced something is wrong with the flat. Áine has just moved into a flat in a nice area with her boyfriend, Elliot, pleased because their rent is affordable, but the flat seems different once they move in: damp, cold, and hostile. As she spends time in the flat working from home, or not working, it feels worse and worse, but Elliot doesn’t seem to see it.

    I was drawn in by the description of this book, combining the rental crisis with the ‘young person’s life is falling apart’ genre of literary fiction and ghost story elements. That really is what the novel is, with the caveat that it is also very ambiguous and slow paced, playing with ideas of what kind of nightmare Áine is actually living. The atmosphere is perhaps the best thing about the book, sharply realised and accurate to the sense of dread that comes with hostile living conditions and a mental weariness that you cannot do anything about them (and, in this case, people don’t even believe her about them). You can practically feel the mould growing as you read (and having lived in a mouldy flat in London, it gave terrible flashbacks).

    Whilst reading, I couldn’t tell if the book was going to have something big and decisive that would reveal whether this ghost story had a particular cause, otherworldly or mundane. It is more of an ambiguous narrative, not even delving into for example what Áine’s Prescription that she often doesn’t take is for. The effect of this is to leave you wondering, particularly around Áine and Elliot’s relationship and how much either of them actually paid attention to the other one, and it does work well to explore the sense of being trapped that can take many different forms.

    I enjoyed reading this book, though it did feel slow at times, and I liked that it took the genre that was around a lot a few years ago, with a young woman spiralling, and used it to focus on the housing crisis and how its impact goes far beyond just a place to live in. The ambiguity made sense, but I also felt like it lessened the ability to really explore the impact of the housing crisis on mental and physical health, with a vague, neat conclusion. I do think the book would be good if adapted for film or TV, as I feel the sense of dread would work well.

    Stag Dance by Torrey Peters

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    Stag Dance is the follow-up to Detransition, Baby, a collection of three novellas and one short novel that use genre to explore different narratives of transition and gender. There are two previously self-published novellas, ‘Infect Your Friends and Loved Ones’ and ‘The Masker’, which explore trans community and desire from a speculative fiction and horror perspective respectively, and then a new novella, ‘The Chaser’, which tells a teen drama story in a boarding school. And then there’s the titular ‘Stag Dance’, a short novel about an illegal logging camp in which a winter dance brings to the forefront a rivalry between two ‘jacks’.

    It’s hard to summarise my anticipation for this book, even with the fact that I’d already read the two self-published novellas before. I didn’t know how it would work with the four different stories, but as Peters herself explains in the closing acknowledgements, they come together as using genre to explore transition, each written at a different time for Peters but also taking a very different framing. The world of trans community and hormone farming in ‘Infect Your Friends and Loved Ones’ feels just as relevant now, and was just as punchy as when I first read it, and I think I enjoyed ‘The Masker’s depiction of a horrifying choice amidst the wannabe glamour of Las Vegas more this time, with its echoes of trans media to come post-2016 (for example, a very different version of I Saw the TV Glow). ‘The Chaser’ felt very different again for Peters, with boarding school teen drama not a genre I’d expected, and it sits nicely with Idlewild and ideas of pre-transition relationships and desire.

    And then, there’s the titular story ‘Stag Dance’, which if you’d told me the summary without the author, I would’ve assumed there was no way I’d enjoy it, but instead, it turned out to be an incredibly written and gripping look into what a transition can be in a completely different context. The honesty of costumes and crossdressing for trans people becomes something fresh in this world of lumberjacks in which some are pretending to attend a dance as a woman, but for others, that is entirely revealing. It is written in such a specific way and I found that fascinating: as I’ve heard Peters talk about, her writing often is interpreted as having a trans audience through the vocabulary and what she does or doesn’t explain, but in ‘Stag Dance’, that is not explaining any of the ‘jack’ vocabulary and just letting you pick it all up through context. It shows how much language shapes our understanding and our ideas of gender and transition, with the narrator having a very different way of describing transition, but still having one nonetheless.

    Stag Dance is funny, insightful, horrifying, deeply sad, and won’t be for everyone. I’ve heard a talk in which Torrey Peters spoke about the fact (in a far more nuanced way than I’m putting it) that there should be “trans” every genre rather than the idea of “trans literature” and Stag Dance is doing that work, four stories at once. Entirely predictably, I loved it.

    Hermit by Chris McQueer

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    Hermit is a novel about a guy who can barely leave the house, but whose attempts to get away from his mum’s nagging might take him much further than he thought. Jamie is nineteen and since he dropped out of school three years ago, he just stays in his room playing games and watching YouTube videos with his online friend Lee, occasionally venturing downstairs for microwave burgers and fries, and chocolate spread. His mum Fiona despairs, but she also struggles to connect with other people, especially after kicking out her abusive husband. When Lee tells Jamie about a new friend, who says they are both incels and should come down to London to stay with him, it seems like an escape, but it isn’t as simple as that.

    Having enjoyed Chris McQueer’s short stories, I would’ve wanted to read this one regardless of the content, but the blurb drew me in too, with the idea of exploring online and incel culture through the perspective of someone who might be targeted by incels online as a potential ‘convert’. McQueer treats it all with nuance, through chapters that alternate between Jamie and Fiona’s perspectives to compare how their similarities led them in different directions, and particularly how online incel and “manosphere” culture preys on people who don’t even feel that connected to its key tenets and claims. Jamie doesn’t care that much about girls until he is told he should be angry at all women for rejecting him, and you see how that makes him lash out at his mum and believe she doesn’t care about him.

    There’s an underlying dread that particularly sets in halfway through, as Jamie and Lee go to London, and you know something isn’t going to go well. It’s darkly ridiculous, but also feels horrifyingly real, especially if you know anything about incels or other online communities (for example, the elements in which Jamie didn’t understand the terminology or ideas of incels, but felt like he had to go along with it). Fiona’s story is also moving, not just how she cannot help Jamie or even feel able to tell him that she loves him, but also how she basically had a similar trajectory that was different due to it being a earlier time and her being a woman (and the element where people on Facebook accused her of killing Jamie was darkly real too).

    From McQueer’s short stories, I was expecting something maybe surreal alongside the darkly funny elements, but Hermit is actually more of a deep look at feeling like an outsider and the impact these days of certain online communities finding prey in these people, with more dread and sadness than weird elements. It is refreshing to read a literary fiction novel that takes this kind of thing seriously, rather than just having some reclusive incel character as a joke. McQueer makes this a moving look at two people, mother and son, who could be described as hermits, with plenty of humour but not treating them as a joke.

    Carrion Crow by Heather Parry

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    Carrion Crow is a novel about a woman shut in an attic to learn how to be a good wife, in a gothic exploration of polite society and secrets. Marguerite was locked in the attic by her mother, Cécile, with only Mrs Beeton’s Book of Household Management and a sewing machine for company, plus a crow she discovers has made its own within the roof. Cécile appears sporadically to bring food and check on Marguerite’s progress, but Marguerite starts to lose track of how long she’s been there, and why is she fighting to get married in the first place?

    Told alternatively in Marguerite’s present and the history of her mother, this novel slowly unravels a story of social position, respectability, and secrets, whilst still not handing the reader everything on a plate. The narrative unfurls in a way that the reader starts to understand things before Marguerite does, creating a sense of dread as you realise what she hasn’t. In particular, Marguerite’s ‘plan’ that has led to her being in the attic is heartbreaking once you realise how her belief, from her mother, in ideas of polite society and what she must do to be allowed what she wants is misguided, but also deeply tied up in class, position, and gender. Queerness is shown in opposition to these ideas of polite society, but also the thing that offers alternative ideas of freedom.

    This historical gothic novel is slow and lingering, without an easy answer or way out. I’m not usually a fan of historical novels, but Carrion Crow gripped me, though the backstory elements sometimes felt too drawn out. Fans of gothic novels will enjoy this one, which doesn’t shy away from some more disgusting elements.

    Model Home by Rivers Solomon

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    Model Home is a novel about three siblings and what happened in their seemingly ideal gated home. Ezri grew up in Texas with their two sisters, Eve and Emmanuel, in a McMansion their parents were proud to own, even in such a White community. When their parents are found dead in the house, Ezri and their sisters must face the haunted childhoods they spent there, and their blame on the house and their parents for keeping them there, because sometimes the what haunts us isn’t always what we think.

    I was excited to read a new book by Rivers Solomon and this one didn’t disappoint, combining a complex family relationship and a classic haunted house premise with ideas of memory, justice, and recovery. The chapters are mostly told from Ezri’s perspective, with some from others’ points of view, and it works well to make it hard to work out exactly what people know and what memories might mean. The plot is quite like a horror story, and is split between the past and the present to explore what it was like for the siblings to live in the house as well as the present events, but the book also plays with these ideas of haunting, and what kinds of harms might be out there.

    The characters are rich and well-realised, even shown through mostly Ezri’s perspective, and I like how details about them are slowly revealed rather than told to us straightaway. There’s also a lot of character detail that feels very real, like diabetic characters taking insulin and checking their blood sugar, and characters are allowed to be messy, complicated people without it needing to have a plot reason. I liked the relationship between Ezri and their daughter, and the complexity of not always being able to be the parent a child might need, and also how various parent-child relationships in the book showed how these can change over generations and there can be new models of parenting. Model Home is very much about family relationships and the ways that these can haunt, as well as how choices made by family impact each other.

    There’s plenty more packed into the book as well, as it plays with expectations about what kind of story it is, and it defies easy categorisation, but is just a book that explores memory, haunting, family, race, and belonging whilst having a gripping plot about a house that reminds the siblings of a terrible past.

    Woodworking by Emily St. James

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    Woodworking is a novel about being trans in small town America, as two trans women with little else in common become friends. Erica is thirty-five and recently divorced, a high school teacher who directs community theater and seemingly doesn’t have much else on. She also knows she is a trans woman, but nobody else in the town does, until she tells Abigail, the school’s only trans student. Abigail lives with her sister after her parents threw her out and beneath her tough exterior, she might just need Erica’s friendship as much as Erica needs hers.

    I’m not a fan of unlikely friendship novels, which tend to be trying too hard to be inspiring and end up bland and twee, but Woodworking is very much unlike those. I’d heard about the book so wanted to read it, and I’m really glad I did, as I love how it combines different genres of fiction that have been used to tell trans stories—the kind of thirtysomething divorce story and a young adult novel—into one book exploring the different experiences of different women, trans and cis. The narrative moves between Abigail’s first person point of view and a third person narrator focused on Erica (with another voice later on that it would be too revealing to describe) and this gives a sense of the differences between them and their outlooks, but also where they have similar needs for community with other women, both trans women and cis women.

    Another thing I really liked about Woodworking was the fact that characters are allowed to be flawed: messy, annoying, selfish, etc. In particular, reading Abigail’s first person perspective as an adult can be frustrating, because St. James writes her very much as a teenager who has adopted certain defensiveness to survive, which is reflected in her tone. Both protagonists get frustrated and lash out at people, make bad choices, and even by the end, are still just trying to work out what futures they might have. Some people might not like this messiness, wanting characters who don’t do “bad things”, but it felt very fitting for a novel about different kinds of friendship and mentorship and the fact that these things aren’t linear. To draw out the obvious point of the novel, Erica is thirty-five and needs to advice of a seventeen-year-old who already knows about things like trans support groups and coming out, but both characters need each other and many of the other characters in the book to see a future in which they don’t have to hide.

    I loved Woodworking and the way it explores ideas of hiding, existing, and community with gripping, messy characters. It is like if you crossed Detransition, Baby with a young adult novel about a teenage trans girl trying to balance rebellion and fitting in, and focused on the intersection between them.